when....

You miss someone so much, that it's hard to function during the day because they were such a big part of it, when it hurts so bad, when one sleepless night turns into days and weeks of sleepless nights. How does one cope when the person you love has turned cold? Eventually all will come together and things will move along but in the meantime a girl needs major retail therapy and pampering. I've been told that there is one person in everyone's life who has this effect on them, some of us go through it early in life while others experience it later either way; we all go through it. So I guess the big question is: is there really only one real love in a lifetime? If so what happens when it falls apart?

its been a min....

but now I am back up in it! I know it has been a while (almost a year) since I last posted and I apologize for disappearing. There has definitely been some changes and those changes have caused to me to grow as a person and examine life differently. I have to start taking my life and my crafts more seriously.....I don't know why this is a revelation and 27yrs old, but it is and I am ready to make some improvements.

First i will start off with the matters of the heart. It has been a rocky road and I must say that I gave someone too much power over me. My spirit is lost and I am trying to lure her back. Love should never have one second guessing herself and it should never be an excruciating event in your life. I always had this picture of love being kind, light and wonderful. To my surprise it started out that way, but it is ending as a slow train wreck that I can't manage to stop. The truth is I'm not sure if I want to stop it, I mean maybe it could turn around!  Is it bad to love someone so much that you want to be with them no matter what......through the tears, through the fights, through the unnecessary "I'm Sorry's".....when is enough....enough?